I feel like I'm almost floating
Today started off a really chilled day. I woke up at 11, my mum's friend was here and they spent most of the day talking. I had a sushi roll for breakfast (260 calories) but I had planned that if I slept in the sushi roll could count as both brekky and lunch. I know that it's still a LOT of calories that isn't good enough but I love sushi :/
I'm going to a picnic tomorrow not that you'replanning on eating anything so once I'd eaten I decided to look for things that I could cook. I love cooking, it makes me feel calm and it surprisingly suppresses my appetite you still eat way too much. I chose to make pumpkin scones, vanilla cupcakes, fruit skewers and choc chip cupcakes; all by scratch, might I had (sorry I'm a little bit cheeky). So I went to the fruit shop then got home and got stuck into cooking the vanilla cupcakes which my were already half eaten by my family before I moved on. I didn't have any, like a good little girl but you licked the spoon you fat cow.
I then moved onto the pumpkin scones. I've never had them or made them before but my mum said that Grandma used to make them all the time and that they were the best. My mum also said that Grandma would be watching me make them saying "That's my Granddaughter", which was sweet of her to say. Not that we're religious or anything, but... spiritual.
Anyway, the scones were a lot harder to make than thought. The dough didn't really turn out like a dough, more like glue so I had to keep adding tons of flour. As we were making them though (let me know if this happens to you, I get it quite often but it normally happens when I stand up too quickly) I could tell what was about to come on. I felt tingly and then, as it usually does, my eyes went black, my ears started to ring a bit and I had to sit down. Kind of like blacking out? I hate it when it happens. Once it passed I got back up to cook the scones but it happened again and i had to sit down. Is it because of my food intake or something? I hadn't eaten for six hours. My mum said I looked really pale, almost green and so I couldn't go to Zumba and burn away those disgusting calories and that fat.
Later on she said I might not of eaten enough but I said I had. She tried to make me have some pasta I said 'yes of course' but never got up to eat it. She wants me to have a blood test... does this mean the doctor will find anything out? you need to shed these kilos that you gained overseas and then get down to 44 kilos.
My whole days intake ended up being 397 calories you fat arse.
I just finished the choc chip cupcakes and am making the fruit skewers in the morning. Not that I plan on eating any of this, or if I have to I'll have a fruit skewer.
Tomorrows plan:
brekky: a tomato; 16 cals
lunch: a fruit skewer; 62 cals
dinner (if I can use the excuse 'I ate too much at the picnic'): a tomato; 16
Which will equal to 94 calories. Sounds too good to be true. If I slip up and have a cupcake that would equal 337... but 94 sounds so much nicer.
fingers crossed for me please, my beautiful butterflies
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