It's a Beautiful Day

Today has been a good day. I went out shopping and handing out resumes with K and for some reason when I'm with K I tend to eat a lot (I still ate under the recommended amount)... I think it's because I really enjoy her friendship and company and I don't feel the need to restrict.

Breakfast:

1/3 cup of Guardian cereal with some skim milk and 1/4 of a nectarine = 53 calories

Lunch:

Small vegetarian sushi lunch pack = 221 calories (over estimating here)

Shared a rocky road bar with K = 180 calories

A small thing of melted chocolate called a 'Chocolate Lick' = 309 calories (over estimating a lot here I think)

Dinner:

Wholemeal pasta salad

Black lentil and beetroot salad

3/4 of a Flathead filet

= 529

All up it equals 1310 calories BUUUUUUUT we literally were out for seven hours so minus the bus trips, the trying on clothes and the sitting down to eat we did five hours of walking which burned 783 calories which leaves my total days intake to 527 calories! Yes, it's still more than I would have liked but I over estimated a lot of it. I'm so happy with that. I am quite thrilled at the moment even though I have a belly filled with food.

Tomorrow I'm going to a relative's third birthday party where there's going to be a loooot of temptation. I think I'll allow myself some goodies as long as I walk around/play around a lot. After all, the next day I'm back at school and will be back in routine.

I hope your days have been filled with sunshine, laughter and love!

I love you all,

Anafly

xxx

ps. as you can see, I had quite the sweet tooth today hehehe

pps. I would upload some thinspirational pictures for you darlings but my uploader seems to be on the blink

I'm in Quite a Whimsical State

I feel like I'm almost floating

Today started off a really chilled day. I woke up at 11, my mum's friend was here and they spent most of the day talking. I had a sushi roll for breakfast (260 calories) but I had planned that if I slept in the sushi roll could count as both brekky and lunch. I know that it's still a LOT of calories that isn't good enough but I love sushi :/

I'm going to a picnic tomorrow not that you'replanning on eating anything so once I'd eaten I decided to look for things that I could cook. I love cooking, it makes me feel calm and it surprisingly suppresses my appetite you still eat way too much. I chose to make pumpkin scones, vanilla cupcakes, fruit skewers and choc chip cupcakes; all by scratch, might I had (sorry I'm a little bit cheeky). So I went to the fruit shop then got home and got stuck into cooking the vanilla cupcakes which my were already half eaten by my family before I moved on. I didn't have any, like a good little girl but you licked the spoon you fat cow.

I then moved onto the pumpkin scones. I've never had them or made them before but my mum said that Grandma used to make them all the time and that they were the best. My mum also said that Grandma would be watching me make them saying "That's my Granddaughter", which was sweet of her to say. Not that we're religious or anything, but... spiritual.

Anyway, the scones were a lot harder to make than thought. The dough didn't really turn out like a dough, more like glue so I had to keep adding tons of flour. As we were making them though (let me know if this happens to you, I get it quite often but it normally happens when I stand up too quickly) I could tell what was about to come on. I felt tingly and then, as it usually does, my eyes went black, my ears started to ring a bit and I had to sit down. Kind of like blacking out? I hate it when it happens. Once it passed I got back up to cook the scones but it happened again and i had to sit down. Is it because of my food intake or something? I hadn't eaten for six hours. My mum said I looked really pale, almost green and so I couldn't go to Zumba and burn away those disgusting calories and that fat.

Later on she said I might not of eaten enough but I said I had. She tried to make me have some pasta I said 'yes of course' but never got up to eat it. She wants me to have a blood test... does this mean the doctor will find anything out? you need to shed these kilos that you gained overseas and then get down to 44 kilos.

My whole days intake ended up being 397 calories you fat arse.

I just finished the choc chip cupcakes and am making the fruit skewers in the morning. Not that I plan on eating any of this, or if I have to I'll have a fruit skewer.

Tomorrows plan:

brekky: a tomato; 16 cals

lunch: a fruit skewer; 62 cals

dinner (if I can use the excuse 'I ate too much at the picnic'): a tomato; 16

Which will equal to 94 calories. Sounds too good to be true. If I slip up and have a cupcake that would equal 337... but 94 sounds so much nicer.

fingers crossed for me please, my beautiful butterflies

xxxxxxxxxx

Skinny Love

I'm so sorry to brag gorgeous girls but today has been another good day for my eating, I'm thanking a relaxing weekend at home.

Breakfast: an avocado roll,

= 149 calories

Lunch: 3 raw cauliflower flowerets (isn't floweret an awesome word? I just learnt today that that is what the little cauliflower pieces are called) and a mug of rose and french vanilla tea,

= 10 calories

I haven't had dinner yet but am planning on having 1 cup of cauliflower soup which will equal to 93 calories.

This will bring todays calorie intake to 252. Woohoooo :P

I'm not under 49 kilos yet though... I think I'm going to have to keep on going for a little while for that to happen.

Now girlies, I need your help. I've realised that a lot of my meals have carbohydrates as I loooove bread *licks lips* and I don't mind the odd pasta. Any suggestions on vegetarian meals that don't have a lot of carbohydrates?

Good luck with the week, think skinny

Love you all,

Anafly

xxx

There is Always Tomorrow...

Eyes Lit Up you were ever so right in saying: 'there is always tomorrow'. Today proved to be a much better day; even though it still wasn't a great one I'm hoping Sunday will be even better. I slept in till 1.30pm (which isn't usual for me) which meant I didn't need to eat so much.

For breakfast I had 1 cup of broccoli in oyster sauce which is 107 calories.

For the rest of the day I cut off little slithers of banana bread every couple of hours from the banana bread loaf we had which didn't add up to many calories either. Because I was eating something quite filling and quite low in calories every couple of hours I didn't need dinner. This makes todays consumption roughly 467 calories which I'm quite proud of.

All in all I am very happy with how I spent today. I was meant to be studying for exams that are coming up in 2 days (I'll regret not doing so later) but instead had a relaxing day watching A Stolen Life, a Bette Davis movie, with my mother while also being inspired to paint canvases of 1950s pin up girls. The movie has nothing to do with 1950s pin up girls so I'm not sure where that came from. I drew a really good sketch of a picture I found on the net and then painted a small canvas of it. I'm sorry for the stuck up-ness but I do have a little bit of artistic talent and do go to an art school. It was a nice, quiet day which I think I needed. I turned my phone on silent and didn't answer anybody. I feel a bit bad about that especially since my boy friend tried calling me 6 times but I really needed a day to myself.

Thank you all again. Love,

Anafly

xxx

Glenn Ford and Bette Davis in A Stolen Life

The 1950s pin up girl I painted

*sigh* this is a tricky thing

Looking back and reading my last post I'm proud of how positive and happy I sound but todays post will have a different feel. I'ts not that I'm not in a good mind set, it's just my eating hasn't been a great one for me today.

Breakfast was fine, a small bowl of special K with 2 strawberries chopped up with an itsy bitsy bit of milk.

School was when I went wrong. Normally my control is good at school and I've been ever so impressed with my control lately but we were having a special assembly at school (I won't bore you with details); it was a celebration. I had only brought a piece of toast for lunch but there was a great tenptation at play, my biggest weaknesses... cupcakes and cake and for free. I ditched the toast and had a slither of cake and 4 or 5 cupcakes. It was stupid, foolish and just, well, stupid. I was gutted, but the fact I was going to the gym in the evening for Zumba for an hour then a work out for 40 mins made me enjoy those horrible delights of sheer yumminess.

I had dinner before Zumba which consisted of an avocodo roll so I was pleased with myself.

Then when I got home, there was vegetarian pizza and garlic bread waiting. I know what you're thinking 'Eeeck calories, calories, calories, fat, fat, fat, oil, oil, oil' but I couldnt resist the absolute smallest piece of vegetarian pizza and half a piece of garlic bread before i saw myself in the mirror and stopped.

I have decided that now I'm roughly 49 kilos I'm not that happy. I still have the same fat on my thighs so my new goal is 46 kilos. Is it wrong to want to better myself that tiny bit more? I hope not but either way, I'm still going to try I just have to firstly get to the 48 kilo mark.

Now I shall leave you with apicture from the American site http://www.thisiswhyyourefat.com/ that will hopefully deterr you from bad bad food. Can you believe that people eat these things?

Love you forever and always,

Anafly

xxx

Heart-A-Mac and Cheese

"A layer of mac and cheese on the bottome, then chicken, another layer of mac, then beef, sun dried tomatoes, bacon, another layer of mac, and lastly a layer of mac and cheese sprinkled with beef and parmesan cheese spirinkled on top."

She's back

I'm sorry fellow skinny wishers that I seemed to have dropped off the face of the earth the last couple of weeks but they have been fairly busy. There is a lot that needs to be caught up on!

I will start with some good news (yaaay good news!) I hope that you guys will be proud to hear that if I weigh myself in the morning before breakfast I weigh 49 kilos! I'm so happy! It's taken forever but I'm getting closer to my goal of 48 kilos :)

Also some more good news. I have managed for a little while now to eat under 500 calories. I'm not sure whether to go down to 400 or stay where I am because I think that 400 will a little tricky... but I love setting goals for myself.

This time of year for me is birthday time of year. It was my birthday a couple of weeks ago, followed by my mums, two of my cousins, my family friend and two of my friends birthdays so there has been lots and lotssss of temptation. I've been doing pretty well but a lot of the time if I've been at a party or going out for dinner I've eaten waaaaay more than I should have but I've managed to regain control the next day... most of the time. I've also managed to try to steer clear from chocolate; apart from last night as it was halloween and I was fairly drunk. Being drunk isn't alwways a good thing. My best friend started talking to me about my weight and how she thought I had lost quite a bit within the last 6 months. Before I knew it I started blabbering to her about how I wanted to lose weight and blah blah blah... but I didnt tell her about my calorie control, I didn't tell her everything. I did try explaining it to her but she just didn't understand. I can try and fix this problem by acting like I'm fine and never talking about it again with her... I'll try and completely ignore the topic.

Recently I've compiled a thinspiration playlist on my ipod. It's only short but it works really well. It motivates me to excercise and when I'm about to eat junk food or snack when I shouldnt I just think about the playlist or listen to it and it stops me in my tracks. I was wondering if anyone else had a thinspiration playlist? I'll post mine next time, once I find my ipod.

Sorry for the semi-rushed job. There was a lot to say (I think I've forgotten a lot of it) and I wanted to get it done quickly so I could study.

Love you all,

Anafly

xxx

ps. I'll leave you with some pictures of the beautiful Nina Dobrev, my thinspiration

The three Cs: chocolate, calories and control.

Beginning of this week I decided to eat under 1200 calories a day which then soon changed to 1000. The last 4 days or so I'd been doing really well trying to eat under 1000 calories a day and I was so happy with myself... until todays blunder, I managed to eat almost an entire massive block of chocolate after dinner -___-

I feel so horrible now, but damn it tasted so good. I guess tomorrow I'm going to have to control myself, as in reeeally control myself. I'll let you guys know what I ate.

Love you all,

Anafly

xxx