I'm sorry I've been gone so long... again.
My computer went through this MASSIVE virus and wiped EVERYTHING and I didn't have any safe access to a computer to visit blogger for at least two months or so. It's also been ultra busy around here with exams and holidays...
I also haven't felt like I deserve to be here.
I'm at a really bad place at the moment.
Probably the worst I've been in ages. Basically, it's been school holidays and lots of people have noticed my weight loss and were making me eat. Once I go over my days calorie limit I think "what the heck" and then go overboard. There have also been a couple of parties I've been to where I've drunkenly told two of my friends (boys) everything. Anyway, so, it's holidays and Easter has just passed and people have been forcing food down my throat so now I think I'm the heaviest I've ever been. I'm so fat. It's disgusting. My belly potrudes so much.
Yet, none of this has driven me enough to excercise and restrict.
I feel like such a failure.
I've lost all motivation.
I also feel horrible for not frequenting blogger and supporting all you lovely lovely people.
I hate myself right now.
The last two days I've been stuffing myself with chocolate in hope to get rid of it all.
I am so disgusting. You should all un-follow me.
I am such a sad excuse for an anorexic.
I think that I might have anorexia/binge eating disorder. If that even works.
I think that I might have anorexia/binge eating disorder. If that even works.
I can't get over how fat I've become.
I'm meant to be the skinny one out of all my friends.
I've let everyone down.
I've let you all down.
Oh gosh I love you all so so so so so so so much. Thank you all 96 of you for following me. I'm going to try extra hard to catch up on all your blogs.
I love you all unbelievably much.
Love Anafly
xxx
