If you can imagine it, you can achieve it. If you dream it, you can become it. Discipline is the bridge between goals and accomplishments.

First off, before i answer your questions I was curious as to if you guys have thinspiration playlists? I do. It's only short but it keeps me on track most of the time. Check them out. Also any thinspiration song suggestions?

My playlist is as follows:

Skinny Love - Bon Iver

Skinny Little Bitch - Hole

Anorexia - Gianmarco Leone

Someone I Once Knew - Dead Celebrity Status

Stand in the Rain - Superchick

Bother - Stone Sour

Damaged - Plumb

Imperfect - Stone Sour

She's Falling Apart - Lisa Loeb (my fave out of them all)

Paper Bag - Fiona Apple (listen to the lyrics, they're soooo thinspiring)

Peanut: Good question. It's tricky eating around my mum. I have to eat enough, or make it seem like I do, so that she doesn't pick up on it and order me to eat more but if I go for a second serve of something or on my bad days if I eat a lot of cookies around her a part of me still feels bad about it, I feel like she'll pick on me about it. Then another side of me feels very mischievous when I eat a lot around her and thinks 'If only she knew'. So I guess I have a combination of feelings. Also, thanks so much for the link! I shall watch it now.

Ruby Lovebird: I accidentally deleted the template you liked and now I can't find it :( but I've settled with this one for the moment. Yeah, the fact that that's how I was brought up my mum is also good thing. I guess one of the reasons my mum did that though was because she was living vicariously. I mean, she was very skinny but then once she had kids she never lost the weight so since she couldn't be skinny I guess she wanted me to? I think we should try sgd sometime :) It should be interesting... we've just got to figure out when.

Erin Rose: Aaaw I'm glad they have that affect on you! You seem like such a wonderous person and I enjoy reading your blogs, seeing what you have to say. Trust me, those comments are gonna keep on comin ;) Thank you for you compliment about my attitude, that means a lot. I'm glad you understand being heavier than all your friends when you were younger. I'm also not glad that you had to deal with that when you were younger if you know what I mean. Now to answer the question haha. I'm in fact 16. A question for everyone, do I come across as that age at all? How old did you guys think I was?

Night_Flower: Thank you so much for all the compliments! They are all very lovely, like you. Hmm... my favourite film... That's hard, I don't just have the one. I'll list a few but I can't think of them all now, I'm having a bit of a mind blank. Quite a few of you might not know them so sorry!

Chicago

Philadelphia Story and High Society (High Society was the musical remake)

A Stolen Life

My One and Only

Absolutely all Johnny Depp movies. Especially Cry Baby, Sweeney Todd, Secret Window, Chocolat and Ed Wood. I love him.

The Harry Potter series

Any movie with Cary Grant

uuuum... I can't think of any others for the moment. I'm sure i'll think of more later

Nathaniac: Yeah, it did turn out to be a great encouragement to lose weight, so win for me! Haha. These Christmas holidays are going to be really good! (spiel alert) Most of my family, my father's side, lives in England and we haven't seen most of them for four years. So on the 19th of December we're flying to Bangkok for three days to avoid a 24 hour flight. We'll then fly to England and stay there for two weeks. On Christmas and Boxing Day we'll be having a family chirstmas with tons of food and about nine of us. Within those two weeks we're gonna travel to Belgium for the day because that's where my auntie and younger cousin live. At the end of the two weeks we'll fly to Bali and stay there for one week to relax and unwind. Don't get the wrong idea folks, we're not rich, we're just spending money we don't have. But I need all of your help. I have no idea how I'm going to keep my weight under control when I'm in different countries with magnificent food and great culture. The main problem is that I'll be with my parents and my brother practically 24/7 and I'll be with my extended family on Christmas and Boxing Day. I know there will be food I'll be forced to eat. Any suggestions? I also won't be able to weigh myself at all which will be horibble. I don't want to get back and have put on five kilos!

I love all my beautiful, darling, gorgeous, kind, caring and fabulous butterflies. What would I do without you all?

Love Anafly

xxx

It's ironic that as I type this I'm searching for a recipe of lemon tart that I used to make my family

And I will be making two today. One for my mum to take with her when she goes to a BBQ with old high school friends and one for my brother and I while I babysit. I'm also going to make him and I for dinner a polenta savoury pancake with guacamole from the vegetarian recipe book. Don't worry, I'm going to make sure that the rest of my days intake is low. I've only had one weetbix with a bit of banana for breakfast and I plan on having a small piece of lemon tart for lunch and one healthy pancake with guacamole for dinner. It's my weekend, please let me have a bit of fun with my food.

Oh, I also bought another cook book yesterday. For those of you who are Australian I bought Poh Ling Yeow's cook book, the runner up of last years Masterchef. It really is amazing. I love her and the food she creates. Not that I've eaten any of it, it just looks good in the book and on her TV show.

I bought Wintergirls yesterday too and finished reading it yesterday as well. It. Is. A.M.A.Z.I.N.G. I'm not the kind of person who admits to crying, heck, I barely remember the last time I cried, but when I read Wintergirls tears were slowly edging down my face. I'm not sure if that's because I could relate to how she thought of herself or because it was an emotional book. Well it would have been because of both of those things. I thought that maybe after I read the book it would change how I thought of myself (I was scared of that). Lucky for me (and also unlucky for me I guess) it didn't. Anyway, I recommend reading it if you haven't already.

I'm also pleased to inform you that I went to see Harry Potter again last night but with my brother and my dad (Harry Potter's always been mine and my dads little bonding thing). I ate a small dinner before we left and even though I was given a free Honeycomb milk drink, was offered anything from the food court from my dad and my brother had bought a pack of pods for the movie I managed to only consume one single pod while being out. I'm pretty impressed.

Hmm sorry that this posts a bit... nothing but they were just some things I really wanted to inform you guys on.

Good luck my butterflies

Love,

Anafly

xxx

Short and Sweet

Please control yourself. Stop shovelling so much food into your mouth.

But I can't stop.

I

Can't

Stop.

What happened to my control?

Why has this weekend been such a food involved one?

I hate it. I hate myself for eating so much that my stomach feels like it's about to explode and it is so visibly round. Why do I do this to myself?

I'm so stupid and so fat.

**Sorry for the short post, just needed to vent. Hopefully next time my post will be long and positive. Thanks so much for the comments too. Oh, I've been reading all your blogs (I adore them and you but haven't had time to comment. Sorry!) Also, welcome to the new followers. Thanks so much for following**

Thank you

It made me ever so happy to log in this evening to see that I had 5 followers. I know to some of you that seems like nothing but to me it means a lot; it shows me that what I'm writing connects with people and that I'm semi-appreciated so, thank you. I'd also especially like to thank Ruby Lovebird for her constant encouragement, you really are a wonderfully, fantastic, beautiful person.

Anyway, today has been a spectacularly crap day for me and food. As it's cold I've eaten too much. It almost felt like I had gone back to my old self, eating whenever I felt like it. I can't even face the scales. I'm too scared that I might see the dreadful 53 kilos that I once weighed not too long ago. Scales are very scary things. So this is why I haven't updated the above weight gizmoabob. I'll wait till tomorrow after I've gone for a long walk. It's odd to think that just the other day I was well controlled and filled with positivity.

Stay strong my lovely lovely followers

xxx

The three Cs: chocolate, calories and control.

Beginning of this week I decided to eat under 1200 calories a day which then soon changed to 1000. The last 4 days or so I'd been doing really well trying to eat under 1000 calories a day and I was so happy with myself... until todays blunder, I managed to eat almost an entire massive block of chocolate after dinner -___-

I feel so horrible now, but damn it tasted so good. I guess tomorrow I'm going to have to control myself, as in reeeally control myself. I'll let you guys know what I ate.

Love you all,

Anafly

xxx