Monday, January 17, 2011

Howling at the moon

My body feels battered and bruised on the inside emotionally. I don't know who I can count on in life at the moment. Everyone I have loved has at some stage moved away. Feel free to ignore this lonely girl just crying out into nothingness; like a wolf howling at the moon. I don't even fully understand myself at times. Just then I threw a perfectly good meal of fish, rice and salad over the fence because I'd already eaten my dinner: a rice cake with a teaspoon of avocado, a rice cake with a thimble full of light philadelphia and another rice cake with four slithers of banana. All under 150 calories. I'm damn proud of that though, the thought of eating what my dad prepared didn't even cross my mind. Ana is here for me when no one is physically. Thank you ana for caring for me.


  1. Hey sounds like we are two peas in a pod..... whats your email love? I really need someone to talk to

    I made it when I was like 10 haha
    email me any time, I would love to hear from you :)

  3. I do, love; I care.
    And I'm howling into nothingness with you most nights; silent tears echoing into the loneliness of dark.
    Oh love, I care, so much.

  4. god that is strength
    when my mom brings me food its so hard for me to reject it
    i almost always end up purging or chewing it but not swallowing

  5. its always hardest at night when the moons bright, that the animalistic side takes over. stay strong...
    very inspiring blog :)


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