My body feels battered and bruised on the inside emotionally. I don't know who I can count on in life at the moment. Everyone I have loved has at some stage moved away. Feel free to ignore this lonely girl just crying out into nothingness; like a wolf howling at the moon. I don't even fully understand myself at times. Just then I threw a perfectly good meal of fish, rice and salad over the fence because I'd already eaten my dinner: a rice cake with a teaspoon of avocado, a rice cake with a thimble full of light philadelphia and another rice cake with four slithers of banana. All under 150 calories. I'm damn proud of that though, the thought of eating what my dad prepared didn't even cross my mind. Ana is here for me when no one is physically. Thank you ana for caring for me.